Reflexion on the journey towards growth and fulfilment

For a long time, I was wrongly thinking that I needed to reach a certain goal, destination in life. Even though this goal was blurry, I was entertaining the thought of reaching it. I didn’t know where I was actually going and how I would be able to take the steps to achieve it. I didn’t know, I guess I idealised life too much as in all the movies I watched and books I read. Living and growing up, the many people we meet and the experiences we go through are the best teachers; life hits us when we expect it the least. It’s okay since at least, it enables us to realise, to wake up, to learn, to rise, to take action, to do something different in order to bring the real change, the improvement that we constantly seek but seems so out of reach.

Steven Furtick wrote in (Un)qualified that actually, the journey is the destination, the process is the goal. This blew my mind because deep down, this is a truth I always knew but didn’t know how to express. When I read it, I started to recall the important periods of my life and the decisions I had to take and I asked myself: what if this didn’t happen? or that didn’t happen? And I realised, I wouldn’t be where I was then, asking myself these very questions. I understood in an even deeper way that all the experiences and circumstances I found myself in contributed to make me into the person I am now and I am so proud of the person I am now, improving every day.

It doesn’t matter if we are still struggling with our flaws, if our past failures and shortcomings are still haunting us or if we are not how and where we want to be; what really matters is to constantly evolve, learn, try, improve. This process, this journey of life is usually hard, painful, it is not a straight line, if it is, then we are certainly doing something wrong and it will come back at us later. The pressing is and should be painful, we may cry, we may beg God to stop it all, we may reach certain times when we will be out of breath after all the trials, all the work, all the efforts, but after some time, we will reach peace, rest, joy. The most important is to understand and identify the seasons we find ourselves in and not try to skip them since these prepare us for the next seasons, these equip us to go from strength to strength, from glory to glory (Psalm 84:7, 2 Cor. 3:18, Ezek. 47:3-5). We need to understand that the best is yet to come while gaining confidence not only in God but also in ourselves because we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them (Ephesians 2:10). Hence, we should not be giving up while going through these processes because these are the real purpose, the real goal; keep going, keep fighting, keep trying, keep meeting people, keep building relationships, keep learning, keep loving, keep helping, keep living. Before, I didn’t know, so I was looking for stability, for a status quo, for comfort; frozen by fear, staying in my bubble.

I had been living the wrong way but now, I am relieved I realised; I haven’t felt that free since a very long time, no more settling, no more fear, now, I can’t wait to keep on journeying through life. I want to take action, I want to take risks, I want to try, I want to make mistakes, I want to learn from these mistakes, I want to improve, I want to be stronger, I want to be real, authentic, I want to grow, I want to mature, I want to express who I really am and not hide anymore, fearing that people will not validate me. I understood that God does validate me and this is the most important fact I need to remember. We should all remember this and quit this stress that is choking us while trying to achieve this dearest conventional vision of success, imposed and craved by society. We should take the risks and try, if we are right, good! But if we are wrong, we will definitely learn from it because that’s the purpose…

09/02/2020